To My Son

To My Son,

The moment you were born
I held you in my arms,
Vowing to protect you from Life's harms.
From that day onward
I watched you with pride
As you traveled through childhood
Taking Life in your stride.


During that time, my dreams did grow...
That good health and happiness you'd always know.
Yet, deep down inside me lurked one fear...
The disease of addiction in our family was clear.
I hoped, I prayed it would not touch you,
But that dream I held was not to come true.


My life seemed shattered when the truth was known
That the world of addiction had become your new home.
I tried everything I could think of to make you see
That you could stop "using" if you'd listen to me!
I coerced you into rehabs time and time again...
Little did I know my efforts were in vain.


Deeper and deeper my anguish grew
As I slowly discovered there was nothing I could do.
It was when the pain of holding on, I now do know,
Became greater than my fear of Letting Go
That I knew it was time to set you free
To live your own life whatever your choices might be.


Oh, Son, it was painful for me to do...
But a life of my own I had to pursue.
Today, I understand that you also suffer pain
With feelings of fear, hopelessness, and shame.
I have to release you to a Power of your own
To pursue your own destiny, though it isn't known.


How much you mean to me I pray you know.
I love you, Son ... I must Let Go.

Love always,
Mom

Copyright © 2000 Alaura K.
Please do not reproduce without written permission. Thank you.
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